Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Out of Sorts or Discombobulated
I am so discombobulated (wow I did spell check on that and it was there...I just thought it was a made up word. Like ishkabibale, weepwoop, itsyabeannie and bobaleany.) Anyhow I've been out of sorts the last several days. I was doing so good for a few weeks. I was in rhythm, things seemed to be working out but not sure why, because the extra things I were doing were not leading to anything. Upon inspection, which I probably shouldn't of done, what I was doing seemed like nothing more than time filling busy work. Maybe the true benefit of it was to give my mind something else to focus on.
My problem, and I don't think it is a problem, is I like to know that what I'm doing is productive. I don't like to walk around in a circle. So when I feel like I'm walking in a circle, I feel compelled to stop and evaluate. So when I did evaluate last week I kind of came to a dead stop and haven't been able to overcome my dead weight inertia ( I think that is the right use, if I recall my physics). Today, I was supposed to work out, and make cold calls. I did neither. I allowed myself to be sucked into the vortex of my office doing other things, things that I didn't want to do. I never cut out time to do the things I wanted to do. And it isn't like the things I did were any more productive, or wouldn't of gotten done...but I just didn't muster up the motivation to do the other stuff.
Why isn't there a clear path to travel on? Damn you uncertainties of life, DAMN YOU!