Oh, Yea..Here Comes Mister Depressed

Like a dark cloud hanging over me.  This whole week, hell these past two weeks, just are for shit.  The reasons are the same as normal and throw in a dash of being sick and bam you've got shit.

Look, I can appreciate you don't need me gripping in your ear.  Well enough, stop ready then.  This is my blog and my therapy.  I thought things were improving, then things didn't come together like I expected and life just tripped and is trying to regain its footing.  I'm sick and tired of everything not coming together in one long consistent manner.  These ups and downs are killing me.

When I get off track, then every things seems to be thrown off track. I find it real hard to pretend life is grand in other parts of my life when one is a complete whirlwind of chaos.  Hell look at these drawings from the last few days.  They suck so much I almost decided to just hang up the old dream.  Fortunately I looked back at some past work and confirmed I can draw and can be funny and talked myself into believing things will be okay.  Just wish it wouldn't wait too long to be okay.

I'm a Pusher, Not a Puller

I got this hair up my ass to experiment with different pens. Again. I really like the old style, organic, look of a quill pen, and have this fantasy that I could use these for inking. I'm a product of the ball point pen. I've heard old teachers complain the ball point pen ruined penmanship. It causes you to press down too hard. Which I do. Also I do a lot of pushing when I write and draw. What I mean by that is I don't exclusively pull down, but will also push up, left and right rather than using a pulling motion, which kind of requires you to either rotate the paper or rotate the pen some.  Pushing with a ball point or round point is fine, but with a nib is scratches, catches, skips and generally doesn't work. The nibs with more rounded tips and those with flow flaps (don't quote that as a standard term) like the Speedball B-6 can be pushed, but really only create a uniform thickness of line, which kind of negates the value of using a nib, and increases the chance of globs and spills.

Below I've scanned in four different pens, on the same doodle.  This actually began as an exercise in using the non-photo blue pencil, which lead me to realize I'd have to ink in every doodle to be seen..  (hmm, idea could I doodle with a nib all day?  Only concern would be spilling that ink on the carpet.  The cat or I could knock it off.)  In my opinion the Sharpe, Penstix and B-6 show the most confidence in line work.  The Hunt you can see the potential for globs, and it is fussy because it was done on copy paper which typically does that with anything wet.  The Sharpe is not practical in every day use unless I plan to draw in super large scale, the line weight it too much for small work.  This was done on at full size on 8.5x11 copy paper.

Hunt Globe Bowl Point

Fine Point Sharpe

Penstix .5mm

Speedball B-6 

Hunt School Round

Doodle In The Mornin', Doodle In The Afternoon

Go Vote and Express Yourself

A Mistake, Can You Find It?

I added on to this throughout the day.  I didn't intend to create a Rube Goldberg somehow from the candle it grew.  Just prior to scanning it I realized I made a stupid physics mistakes.  Can you find it.    This will never work.

Four Words A Salesman Doesn't Want to Hear

What is it with people and lying?  You are not sparing my feelings by not telling the truth.  You are only preventing me from responding more appropriately.

Being in a type of sales I experience lying constantly.  Like the doodle I did.  Do you really expect me to believe you completely forgot about what you contacted me about in the first place.  Especially after I've called and left multiple messages.  I don't know what the truth is, but I know it is not "you completely forgot".

Oh, and here is the surest sign I can give any current or aspiring sales person who uses the phone, that the prospect is a dead end.  I've witnessed this phenomena anecdotally for years, and then started tracking it earlier this year and my assumptions were confirmed.  Are you ready?  You'd never guess this.  If the person you are trying to sell to uses these four words at the end of their outgoing voice message they will never do what they say they are going to, "Have a Blessed Day".  Yep, a sure sign you will never get a straight answer if you get any answer.  You might as well give up right then.  I don't know why, but it is just the case.